As you can see, I’ve been away for a while. Partly because I don’t have Internet access at home, and partly because I’ve wanted to escape my life for the past two months. Well, at least the work part of it.
“Life is not a destination, it’s a journey.” I’m sure you’ve probably heard that phrase before. I’ve seen it on bumper stickers and t-shirts and have usually written it off as coming from some hippie who doesn’t wear deodorant.
But recently this phrase has taken on a whole new meaning for me.
In the beginning of November I discovered that I was not legally able to do counseling in the state of NC - the entire reason I moved here. It seems that the lady who hired me did not know what she was doing and left both myself and our agency in a hot mess. I found out that to practice counseling without a license is a class 2 misdemeanor… oops.
A little bit prior to this discovery the director of my agency fired another employee and then herself resigned a week later. So, I found myself in a position I could not do and with no director to tell me what to do.
To make a very long story short, I applied for a provisional license and began doing another job (within the same agency) while I waited for the license to be processed and mailed. I began working on the abuse awareness curriculum for the school program and ended up revising and rewriting a lot of it.
Now my provisional license is here and I’ve begun to see clients. Many times I’ve wondered what all that waiting was for, and why God brought me down here when he did. And I’ve realized a few things in the past months: 1) I waste a lot of my life waiting, and 2) I’m done.
I don’t know what I did for the past few months except worry and complain about how ridiculous my job situation was. I wasted the time and took it for granted. Looking back on it, I really enjoyed working on the school program and got some great opportunities as a result of it. But during that time I just wanted it to be over so I could move on to the next thing.
Well, I’m done waiting for the next thing. The next paycheck, the next job, the next stage of my life. I’m going to enjoy what God has given me now. I’m going to enjoy my life- the journey, if you will.
After all, there’s life in the waiting.
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amen to that sista!!
ReplyDeletei completely know the feeling of everything you just said.
i am done waiting as well. i am living now.
i wasn't alive last year... i didn't feel alive. i seriously felt like the walking dead.
that's why you might see me on your futon in the next few months ;)